As I settle back in at home after my recent trip to Bristol, VT I am finding that I have a loss of words. With all of the work I have been doing to explore the deeper self I have arrived at a point where I can’t describe what I have found – and I am realizing this might not be a bad thing.
My desire to articulate everything has had the opposite effect, where I find I am at a loss for words. In a world where we communicate via blogs, Facebook, e-newsletters, Twitter, etc., I feel forced to always be able to express myself and describe my experiences. Rather than forcing myself to find new things to write about, I have decided to accept my lack of words.
I am struggling with the idea of just being with an experience rather than describing it, analyzing it, or defining it. Why not simply allow the emotions to come and go? Life is a continuous ebb and flow where things are always changing. No matter how much I try to control, it life keeps going and my resistance to this movement just makes life harder.
Through the classes I have been taking, speaking with my mentors, and in the books I have been reading, I have been finding signs everywhere to practice compassion and presence. Rather than fight the universe I am trying to let go of doing and just be for today. To allow my post to simply be that I can’t explain where I am right now. I am acknowledging that as I allow myself to settle the words will come and I will be able to truly feel my experience.
We can so easily become lost in our words and labels so I invite you to try out a few minutes (or hours) of silence today and see what you find. Share the time with yourself and then decide if you would like to share it with friends.